Mmmhmm...
I thought about restarting this blog, but then I would have to for every time I've thought I was going to change something and never changed...Ya know? Well you can look back to old posts and see that I've started several things, or have said I would, and haven't really made it past the next day. These are all GOOD things that I want to do but I don't know what I get lost in that I never DO them.
Well, here I am again with more ever changing goals. I have started the 30 squat challenge
and the 30 day ab challenge
I have made it to day 5 and I do feel better about myself, a bit. I've made it to day 5 and I'm proud of myself. It's definitely getting harder and more ridiculous. But it's once a day. I may also start a 30 day writing challenge to reconnect with things I like. I should also get out more...I wonder if there is a 30 day cleaning challenge because I still need to detox my home.
Speaking of home, one thing that remains consistent in my life is my terrible relationship with my mother. I believe it was last week that she said "fuck you" and called me a bitch. That was when I finally decided I'm done with her. My goal for this summer is to get a job in the city so I can move out and be closer to school...not going well so far but for every 100 applications you fill. one will call you back.
In the meantime of job hunting and working out, I need to really clean up my home space. My room is terrible and I know but I don't have the motivation to get to it. I'm trying to better myself bit by bit but I suppose I should take off more with my bite.
To end on a happy note:
There's a guy in my life. I really like him and I hope there is more to this. He's awesome, he gets me to walk for miles, and he introduces me to new things about a place I should know already. Well I am awkward and comfortable with him and I'm happy I made a bold move. This is one decision I love.
Well wish me luck with the job search and moving endeavors AND please pray to the God of your understanding that I gain the life skill of cleaning.
Peace,
Love,
Harmony,
-Jam Bam
I thought about restarting this blog, but then I would have to for every time I've thought I was going to change something and never changed...Ya know? Well you can look back to old posts and see that I've started several things, or have said I would, and haven't really made it past the next day. These are all GOOD things that I want to do but I don't know what I get lost in that I never DO them.
Well, here I am again with more ever changing goals. I have started the 30 squat challenge
Speaking of home, one thing that remains consistent in my life is my terrible relationship with my mother. I believe it was last week that she said "fuck you" and called me a bitch. That was when I finally decided I'm done with her. My goal for this summer is to get a job in the city so I can move out and be closer to school...not going well so far but for every 100 applications you fill. one will call you back.
-I should also resolve to NOT tell my mom personal and intimate things about
myself because she doesn't respect me enough to not make me feel like shit
about them when she is mad.
In the meantime of job hunting and working out, I need to really clean up my home space. My room is terrible and I know but I don't have the motivation to get to it. I'm trying to better myself bit by bit but I suppose I should take off more with my bite.
To end on a happy note:
There's a guy in my life. I really like him and I hope there is more to this. He's awesome, he gets me to walk for miles, and he introduces me to new things about a place I should know already. Well I am awkward and comfortable with him and I'm happy I made a bold move. This is one decision I love.
Well wish me luck with the job search and moving endeavors AND please pray to the God of your understanding that I gain the life skill of cleaning.
Peace,
Love,
Harmony,
-Jam Bam
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