I spoke about my frustration with my brother...he is trying to make amends...
That is sweet of him. Maybe it makes him feel less guilty. Maybe he is proving us wrong about him...But I don't care if I never get anything from him. It's peculiar because this is actually the very first time I recall him ever slipping money into my hands. He also bought me tiny wines because he drank a whole one of mine.
Any ways, I don't care if I never get anything from him, I care that he is not in a place he should be. I'm upset that he only does just enough to get by. I want him to push himself, I want his gf to push herself so that they can make something of their lives and not have to depend on others. I want them to be self sufficient and reliable.
It makes me sad. Sad that they are doing so little to build their own home. They are relying on others and just barely scrapping by. His gifts are beautiful gestures but it doesn't break the sadness I feel when I look at his situation and have to think of the kids bouncing from home to home.
This I need to tell him. I need to tell him again, that I want to see him and his family on their own.
That is sweet of him. Maybe it makes him feel less guilty. Maybe he is proving us wrong about him...But I don't care if I never get anything from him. It's peculiar because this is actually the very first time I recall him ever slipping money into my hands. He also bought me tiny wines because he drank a whole one of mine.
Any ways, I don't care if I never get anything from him, I care that he is not in a place he should be. I'm upset that he only does just enough to get by. I want him to push himself, I want his gf to push herself so that they can make something of their lives and not have to depend on others. I want them to be self sufficient and reliable.
It makes me sad. Sad that they are doing so little to build their own home. They are relying on others and just barely scrapping by. His gifts are beautiful gestures but it doesn't break the sadness I feel when I look at his situation and have to think of the kids bouncing from home to home.
This I need to tell him. I need to tell him again, that I want to see him and his family on their own.
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